Waiting for the Gentle Whisper…

The LORD said, “Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the LORD, for the LORD is about to pass by.”
Then a great and powerful wind tore the mountains apart and shattered the rocks before the LORD, but the LORD was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the LORD was not in the earthquake. After the earthquake came a fire, but the LORD was not in the fire. And after the fire came a gentle whisper
. 1 Kings 19:11-12

I am waiting for the gentle whisper.  I am trying to be as still as I can, as quiet as a church mouse, to hear the words of comfort for my heart. If only the wind, and earthquakes, and fires would stop for just a second.  Maybe I must learn to hear the words amongst the noise.

The Wind began in January with a disconcerted heart.  God was leading me away from my church home of seven years.  Surely we weren’t hearing this correctly.  Brian and I were “well connected”.  Imagine my disbelief, when Brian mentioned his concerns to me.  I began my own quest for the Truth.  It’s in my nature to research things to death.  And this was how I began.  The more I learned of deception and lies, the angrier I became.  God quickly had to take hold of my spirit; to amp up the self-control fruit, because it definitely wasn’t ‘self’ control, but spirit-control.  I had to find the courage to leave my friends, family, comfort, if that was where the Spirit was leading.  We have done it before, just not with so much hurt.  I have to admit, I am still healing from this hurt.  God has allowed things to be taken from my “church” life so I can learn to depend solely on Him, and not a church building.  The bonds with my brothers and sisters in Christ are eternal!!  In March, Brian and I found a new place to call home.

The Earthquake and Fire were almost simultaneous this past week.  Brian lost his job on a Tuesday, and Janet, my best friend and sister, had brain surgery on Wednesday.  Janet is slowly healing from surgery, but so far, it appears the surgery was successful.  The Fire is a slow burning one, Brian is sending out resumes, but not much movement yet.  I finally feel like I have peace that God will lead us through the flames without being burned, like Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego.

Today is the last day of August.  I am hoping the final third of this year will be the gentle whisper I have been waiting for.  I’m ready for a little quiet time.


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